Just a little update!

Hello Reader!

This is just a short update telling you that I now have a YouTube channel. It’s called AFabulousMess and I would really appreciate it if you go and check it out. There are no full videos up now but there will be when I get an good idea. I will try my hardest to update on here and YouTube but there are no guarantees about when. If you want to see my face, go and check out my channel.

See you around!

~Lucy

My YouTube Channel

My Advice to You

Hello Reader!

The last year has been the most difficult one in my life so far. I’ve ended up dealing with bad anxiety and depression due to a terrible series of events…But I wouldn’t ever change it. That’s probably a bit of a strange response to something unfortunate, but if what happened this year was less dismal then I might not have started this blog, I might not have the friends I had and I certainly wouldn’t have found out that I have the strength to leave the tunnel that seemed to have no light at the end.

This seems really random, but I wanted to share something. I’m really happy that my only worries are whether or not I remembered my maths book and I would love it if I could help one person who reads this find that.

My advice to you is: forget other people for one single day of your life and discover the thing that will bring you joy. If that’s learn a skill, then do it. If that’s go out with friends, then do it. If it’s something as daunting as talking about something upsetting you, then please do it. Nothing gets better until you take action, however difficult it may be.

That’s all I needed to say,

See you around!

~Lucy

P.S. I am aware I promised a post weeks ago, but I am very very bad at keeping promises. Sorry!

Guess Who’s Back?

Hello Reader!

I’m back and earlier than I expected! There are some genuine reasons for my recent disappearance but I don’t want to talk about it until certain things get sorted.

In other news, I finally got my act together and have some great ideas for posts. I’m also going to try and post on Mondays and Saturdays, but we’ll see how that works out. I’m terrible at keeping to schedules.

Anyway, post this Saturday,

See you around!

~Lucy

Hiatus

Hello Reader!

I’m going to take a break until September. I’m moving house and going on holiday so I have a lot to think about and I want to enjoy my summer break without thinking about writing, despite loving this blog. I’ll still interact with other blogs, but won’t post.

As well as that, I’ve been struggling recently with trust issues, depression and panic attacks brought on by claustrophobia and stress. I just need some time to myself and this probably won’t be noticeable due to my lack in posting recently.

I hope you understand,

See you around,

~Lucy

The #proudtobe video

Hello Reader!

I have a rant for you.

The #proudtobe video on YouTube has over 100k dislikes and the comments make me physically sick because the homophobia is disgusting.

As you know, I recently came out as bi and I was extremely put off mentioning my sexuality anywhere on the internet because of all of the narrow-minded, over-dramatic homophobes and I shouldn’t have to fear the people who are affected by something that has no effect on their life.

Homophobia is ridiculous. People attacking their fellow human beings purely on the basis that they don’t agree with there sexuality, when they could focus on all of the traits that make this person who they are rather than something that can found a relationship with someone who accepts them.

As well as that, people shouldn’t have to hide. They shouldn’t have to live in fear because certain parts of society have dubbed the thing about them – that wasn’t a choice -wrong. People act as though they ticked a box saying “yes, I want to be part of the LGBT community” but that isn’t how it works.

Sorry for this little rant but I want you to share this around because it needs to be. We need people to hear this.

See you around!

~Lucy

Life Update: Thank You & Bullying

Hello Reader!

So first of all, I would like to thank every single one of you who read my last post as the support was overwhelming and I adore every one of you for it! Thank you all so much!

My second point is longer and not as nice, in fact not nice at all. I just felt like I should inform you of the changes in my life because it’s been quite a difficult week for me.

A girl (who we’re calling ‘A’) I know used to sit next to me in a lesson once a week and things kept going missing and breaking, as well as my working getting ripped or ruined, and she kept denying it or blaming something else, which I believed because it could’ve been anything and I am a very clumsy person and people can be very careless, but then the seating in that class changed and another girl started sitting next to me and I took the same care with my things as I used to and NOTHING went missing. I find that slightly suspicious. Then, literally this week, a ruler broke and I was taking the same care with my things as I did, which I find really odd so I confronted her. Once again, she denied it but took it worse than before and is now blanking me and talks about me behind my back.

Obviously, I didn’t want to sit with her at lunch, which is incredibly difficult as she is friends with one of my closest friends and I just feel pushed away. However, you might think that I can just sit with my other friends but they all go and sit with A because they’re friends with my friend and I know that they don’t like her.

As well as that, her comments about my private life are genuinely upsetting. I’m not going into detail because I don’t want to air my dirty laundry on the internet, but she is making judgmental comments in a pathetic attempt to make me seem like a bad problem for having problems I can’t control.

I’m sorry if this is overly personal, but I really wanted to tell you all and I need some advice, if possible.

See you around!

~Lucy

P.S. There is one specific person I would like to thank and that is  Elm. She has been extremely lovely and has been really supportive ever since “25 facts about me”

 

My Sexuality

Hello Reader!

I honestly haven’t got a clue if anyone cares about this but I feel the need to tell you anyway.

I’m bisexual

I discovered this when I realised I had a serious crush on one of my friends and that it wasn’t just an average ‘girl crush’ that you have when you really admire someone. I realised that I had a genuine romantic attraction to the person in question and I had felt this was before.

I felt like I wanted to put a label on it because it would make me feel more secure. However, I have only come out to certain people close to me and there are a few others that I am going to come out to before this post goes up.

See you around!

~Lucy